Vincent

I am powerless over the way you left......quick and clever... like a theft... barely any traces of you, some coke bottle caps on the windowsill, man you even took the flower pot that I planted a gernanium in.  My friends say that you did me a HUGE favor by leaving and that you never respected me in the first place.  You have a problem with paying bills on time.I am struggling with the aftermath of the emotional hole and abandonment I feel in my organs.  My stomach feels sick, cold sweat covers my palms, my lips are dry due to lack of food and sleep. 

Thinking about you is officially a waste of time, yet that is what I am doing at the moment and for many moments of the past days.  It's time I stop trying to get someone's attention who does not respect me, and who ignores me and doesn't love or even like me.  It is so bizare that I even had to ask for the rent money and you lied and said you would give it to me Saturday and instead you left with no warning.  Why the f*** do I care about you?  This is crazy.....

[Opt]imism

I have the option to do this.  A way for me to get through this is too look ahead
so I did, I reposted and got an answer back...a female who stopped by last night and we hit it off
she is the same height as me which is not a big deal, she gardens and loves animals, just like me and she loves the river and the woods, just like you did.